I have been a huge gaining streak. I didn't mistype that, I truly went out of my weight to gain and just eat whatever I wanted. I wanted to know what it felt like to be truly careless without being pregnant and having a built in excuse. So I gained, oh lord did I. I am now at 190 pounds. This is my first week of walking, eating better and looking forward to healthy food again.
My husband and I try to go for a walk every day with the kids, depending on who is home from school. We have moved to a new home, a new neighbourhood and I am really happy with it. We have a lot of decorating to do but overall it's a fabulous house with a ton of potential I am excited to work on.
Dealing with being depressed and emotional is never fun but I have remained seeing a therapist regularly and contemplating a steady schedule of taking an anti-depressant. I always pursue natural options first and they are working but not as much as I would like.
Over the summer I contracted Mono and Hepatitis A - or a strain of it. No doctor could pinpoint it, we deduced that during my brief stay in Toronto for school I must have picked it up. I went into liver failure and that scared me straight. For awhile. But once I truly got back to health and adjusted to having braces (they're on and they are ghetto fab!) the eating commenced, until last week.
Everyday I am making to-do lists, making sure I get outside or take a drive and run an errand. I am reaching out to make new friends, plan events and try my best to become the person I want to be deep down inside.
I am launching my new business and taking it very slow. I have no idea what will happen with it from here but I am determined to take things slow and enjoy the success if it comes. If it doesn't I still have fun creating some amazing confectionary treats.
So, hopefully I am back much more regularly and I will post photos and keep up. I am trying, but don't hold me to anything.
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